Posterous theme by Cory Watilo

A little bit about this choice. The abridged version.

I always wanted to adopt a child.  I cannot really say why, it just seemed like a good way for family to happen.  I was never sure that it would work out for me.  Without even looking into the process, I knew it would be lengthy and require certain organization skills that I do not have.  I figured it was out of my financial reach.  But about two years ago, I began exploring it a bit.  From the periphery.  I considered it research.  I figured that I was finding out about a choice I may not make, just gathering information on the adoption landscape.  Months later, a social worker deactivated me.  Apparently I wasn't very active...

Being told I would be put into another file, one perhaps labeled "people probably not adopting" got under my skin a bit.  So a year after I began just visiting the idea, I took a few steps forward.  Meanwhile, the program I preferred had become closed to me.  I spent a school vacation calling agencies, researching programs and countries.  I made choices that had the weight of the world on them (to me, at least).  And I made choices that I was not sure how much they mattered.  Eventually, I commit to a country, one that my family and I, and possibly you, will forever be tied to.  I also commit to yet another adoption agency.  I never really believed it would happen.  And I certainly could not imagine that one year later I would find myself readying my house for my baby girl. 

There it is, my adoption story, the very short version.